I FELT I DID NOT MATTER

I was so angry at my mom. I thought I would never forgive her. In May 2018 I received a 24 hours eviction notice from a Tel Aviv court. Ori was just 8 years old at that time, Gabi was 27 (diagnosed with CPTSD and ED) and she had just been admitted to the psychiatric ward of Ichilov Hospital in Tel Aviv. Her health deteriorated after our apartment landlord came over to our place and attacked her. I needed help with the rent payment. For the past five or six months I would be late with payments. Sometimes a week or even longer, in March I paid for February. I asked for help from social services, but they responded that there was nothing they could have done. It just added to my feeling of helplessness and hopelessness, completely dismissed as a human being. I asked friends and my cousin who was living and working in France she was single, didn’t have kids and her parents were well off, I was so sure she would help me. She told my mom and my sister that I asked for help but nothing happened, no one even responded to anything, my mom didn’t even ask what happened. No help. I was so scared and anxious that I couldn’t sleep. I was totally in survival mode, frozen, not being able to rest a little, to even think how I felt, just on a run to save myself and my kids.

That day I ran to the court to file a motion to stay the enforcement of the eviction decision.